Confession time–When I moved to New York last August, I was completely bald. (Full disclosure: It wasn’t by choice. I had just finished seven months of chemotherapy treatments, and I made an industrious effort to cover it up.)
So seeing this picture of Agyness Deyn at Coachella brought back some powerful feelings, since my hair was exactly that length when I decided to lose the wig and go au natural.
Agyness looks perfectly girlie in her pink sundress, but the biggest problem I had with my buzzed hair was feeling less feminine and put together than I did with long hair. Even if I was heavily made-up or wearing the most figure flattering dress, it felt like there was something missing. My boyfriend would cringe when I wore my leather jacket or a pair of biker boots because, let’s face it, I looked a bit like a skinhead.
My family and friends repeatedly assured me that they loved my new look, and a good number of them even suggested that I keep it short. I’ve been known for my impossibly thick, curly hair my whole life, and it was hard adjusting to life without it. Between being young, and new to the big city, my lack of self-assurance caused me to walk around in fear that everyone was staring at me, judging.
One of my lowest points came after a shopping trip to Barneys–a place where statement-making fashion’s encouraged–when two snooty shoppers glared at me and sneered, “Oh…my…God…she shaved her HEAD!”
They judged me as if I was Britney Spears-circa-meltdown, rather than Natalie Portman-circa-V for Vendetta. In reality, the latter was the graceful look I was desperately trying to achieve.
Now my hair is three inches long! Much longer than Aggy’s and I like having a short ‘do. Plus, since it’s long enough to style, it’s actually fun.
I don’t think you need to be a supermodel to rock such a severe style–although cut cheekbones and an unforgettable face don’t hurt–but it takes an enviable level of confidence and a thick skin to voluntarily shave your head. You will get a reaction, and it won’t always be positive. And besides the obvious joy of being so low maintenance, I don’t think there’s anything that would make me shave my head again.
But what I’m dying to know is, would you?