Kate Moss doesn’t open up very often. She’s notoriously press shy. But in her cover story for the December issue of Vanity Fair (shot by Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott), she gives one of the most revealing interviews we’ve ever read.
She opens up about the iconic campaign that gave her a “nervous breakdown,” her reluctance to go nude–especially as a teen, her relationship with Johnny Depp, and so much more.
Here’s what we learned from Kate unfiltered:
• She thinks she takes horrible pictures.
“I don’t want to be myself, ever. I’m terrible at a snapshot. Terrible. I blink all the time. I’ve got facial Tourette’s. Unless I’m working and in that zone, I’m not very good at pictures, really.”
• John Galliano had to give her a “character” to be on wedding day.
“On my wedding day, I’m like freaking out, obviously. ‘You’ve got to give me a character.’ And [Galliano] said, ‘You have a secret—you are the last of the English roses. Hide under that veil. When he lifts it, he’s going to see your wanton past!’”
• The famous Calvin Klein campaign she did with Marky Mark? It gave her a “nervous breakdown.”
“I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts. It didn’t feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn’t like it. I couldn’t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die.”
• About those famous first photos of Kate Moss taken by Corinne Day:
“I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would feel really weird. But they were like, If you don’t do it, then we’re not going to book you again. So I’d lock myself in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt very comfortable about it. There’s a lot of boobs. I hated my boobs! Because I was flat-chested. And I had a big mole on one. That picture of me running down the beach—I’ll never forget doing that, because I made the hairdresser, who was the only man on the shoot, turn his back.”
• Kate Moss may have defined the “heroin chic” look but she never took heroin.
“I had never even taken heroin—it was nothing to do with me at all. I think Corinne—she wasn’t on heroin but always loved that Lou Reed song, that whole glamorizing the squat, white-and-black and sparse and thin, and girls with dark eyes. She loved that look.”
• She was never anorexic. She was just really skinny because there was no food around when she was working.
“At that time, I was staying at a B and B in Milan, and you’d get home from work and there was no food. You’d get to work in the morning, there was no food. Nobody took you out for lunch when I started. Carla Bruni took me out for lunch once. She was really nice. Otherwise, you don’t get fed. But I was never anorexic.”
• She cried over Johnny Depp for years.
There’s nobody that’s ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit. I believed what he said. Like if I said, ‘What do I do?,’ he’d tell me. And that’s what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust. Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears!”
Just a refresher–the campaign that made Moss feel like she was “going to die.” She does look kinda scared:
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