Whoa. John Galliano’s first televised interview since he was fired from Dior two-and-a-half years ago was just filmed last night, and already it’s available to watch online. The Internet is truly made of magic.
In the nearly hour-long interview, we see a shockingly pared-down version of the disgraced designer–slicked back ponytail, button-down, and navy blazer–open up to Charlie Rose about some deeply personal and painful topics, from suicide to addiction to Galliano’s newfound relationship with God–and his discovery that he wasn’t a deity himself. “I was a fully functioning addict,” he says. “It was fine, as long as John took his bow on the runway and the collection was merchandized and marketed… but the drinking did creep up on me. It was very cyclical. After each creative high, there’d be this crash… But of course with the increase of collections, that cycle became faster and faster–there was a collection, like, every four weeks.”
When asked whether he held others–Dior higher-ups, or the fashion industry in general–responsible for his decline, Galliano says, “No, I take complete responsibility.”
“I was not honest,” he continued. “Sometimes, I was acting like God. And now I know I’m not in the driver’s seat.”
Basically, if you thought that Vanity Fair feature was telling, you ain’t heard nothin’ yet.
When questioned about his emotions regarding designer friend Alexander McQueen’s suicide in 2010, Galliano says he “understood–that loneliness, that pain”:
“I was afraid to say no–that little word,” Galliano tells Rose about what led to his pill and alcohol-fuelled breakdown. In the end, he found himself “emotionally, spiritually, physically, mentally bankrupt”:
Watch the full interview here.